Higher Education

Today, I started my first blog and tomorrow, I start my class again. Smart, Melissa. I always like to bite off a little more than I can chew and then complain like hell about how much it sucks. Each semester, I swear to my sister, my husband, my mom, to anyone who will listen that there is NO WAY I will make a good grade in this class and that I am doomed for failure. And then each semester, I somehow pull it together and make a decent grade. I am too much of a perfectionist and worrier to believe that the work I do is ever enough. That is why, when life is going smoothly and everything seems perfect, I have to throw something else into the mix. For this summer class I am taking, our grade is based on a group simulation "game" assignment that lasts the entire semester. My group will have to compete with the other groups in the class and our grade will be determined on how well we do in this "game." Now this scares me a bit. Not only do I have to rely on the performance of those on my team for my entire grade, but the class sounds too much like my actual job and instead of someone paying me, I am paying the school for this. I am sure over the next couple months (if I can continue to find the time for this blog), you will hear many, many, many more complaints about school and how I am certain to fail this class. It will probably not be my fault though. It is most certain to be the fault of one of my team members, or my job, or the professor.